I know. It has been....well I seriously am not sure how long it has been. Too long, I am sure. And not enough knitting if you ask me. Yes, I have been knitting, but I have had some major life events come up and well, I am learning to adjust. Knitting does help me do that, cope and all. But I seriously don't have much to share with you all right now, picture wise.
Let me update you on a few things. Since my accident in July, I have decided to move out and get a space of my own, and a nice shiny new car of my very own as well. This has been a great adjustment, but is working out very well for my soul. My heart has needed this time to heal, and ponder what is really important to my soul and well, I just simply feel like I am where I am supposed to be for the first time in my life. I no longer have to compromise or tolerate anything except myself, and well, I am so very grateful that I have the ability in all aspects to give my heart time to heal, and my soul the opportunity to grow without having to wait for anyone to catch up, or get on the same page.
It is amazing how very healing knitting has been to me in all this time of change. I have basically been knitting on small things, as my evil plan mentioned in an earlier post of keeping all my friends pregnant, is working, and little booties and sweet little sweaters are wonderful in satisfying my knitting needs. I have been filling my free time with the wonderful black hole that is Ravelry, and gathering patterns by the ton! Lately, I am feeling the need to find a nice sweater to work on for me, and I believe I have found it....
What won't leave me alone, and has me challenged as to WHAT COLOR, is the beautiful, well written pattern of Hallet's Ledge. I am having such a challenge as to what color and yarn to settle on, which is why Ravelry is making my brain crave sleep. I review all the finished items, and STILL can't decide on whether to just break down and get the Rowan felted tweed in Sage, or wait. Ughhhhh. I do know that there are much worse decisions to me made in life and will come to a conclusion soon.
My younger son Alex, will turn 16 this Feburary 23rd. My oldest son Frank, turned 18 last November and I cried. I cried the day he started his senior year, and then he came over for Christmas and as I watched my baby drive away in his OWN JEEP, I cried again. Honestly, I am not trying to sound like some sappy lifetime movie. I just can't believe my life has progressed to me turning 40 and my firstborn being a SENIOR in high school. He was just accepted to the school of his choice. I cried again. It seems my whole year of being 40 is about acceptance, self reliance and change. Eventually, I do believe that this will all meld very nicely and quietly into the fabric of what is my life, but right now, I am still trying to grab ahold of all of this and just adjust already.
If the wrongs of life were like knitting, we could just simply frog them and forget, only to reuse the material for a greater creation down the road. And yet, life is a lot like knitting, each stitch a mark of love, and a learning opportunity for what will be eventually be a unique, fabulous creation, that is the combined effort of the yarn, love and time put into it.
Oh, and for those who have faithfully read my blog, you all will remember how much I disliked my job. I have since been FABULOUSLY BLESSED with a wonderful job that will allow me to work from home by the end of March! Yes, you read that right. I am still in disbelief and keep asking my supervisors to pinch me. But its true, I work for a wonderful company and love what I do. It has reduced my stress level down about 500%, and that is my major goal for this year. I will now not die from heart failure, but probably from the frustration that there are so many good knitting patterns out there and I will need four lifetimes to knit them all. Or suffocation from yarn. Not sure which may get me first.
So, yes, I do realize this is a knitting blog and will find a few pictures to try to get you to come visit the Sanctuary again. Until my next post, I hope that you all have many happy, peaceful knitting hours!
I promise there will be knitting pictures soon!